I know from my blog feed that there are many of us for whom 2015 got off to a testing start. That's not to say that January wasn't super-rich in lessons and revelations but bloody hell...
I ended 2014 in such a calm place. All ready to move, floating effortlessly like the top half of a swan, into the plans I'd made for the new year. (needle scratch across vinyl)
Not so much. In the end I got a new year that was intensely bitter-sweet but has changed my life for the better in huge ways. Only now, as the dust begins to settle, am I able to take a breath and whisper, 'Holy crap...where am I? '. My brain is still spinning.
Last evening, before the snow came, the dogs and I were in the field beneath a very nearly full moon that had a stunning halo around it. The light was beautiful, the deer barking in the woods next to us filling the air with wildness. I stood and looked at the moon, at Sister Moon, and asked,'What would happen if I just dived in? If I went full-on hedge witch* without worrying about who I would offend or amuse or inconvenience.'
She replied,'You would be home where you belong. Whatever else, you would know you were home. And you already know that to be true.'
So now I am mostly just staring at the fear. My fear. Fear of a tsunami of...what?...life force, energy, power? I feel it behind me, pushing me off balance. Yesterday I expressed it as 'stage fright' and this shows me I am probably far from alone in these feelings.
That's it. That's as far as I've got. Tonight's moonlit conversation will be interesting.
I hope the Snow Moon brings you gentle but powerful enlightenment.
* "A Hedge Witch is a solitary practitioner of the herbal arts - both, medicinal and spiritual. Her cupboard contains the remedy for what ails you - physical and spiritual. A Hedge Witch does not belong to a coven. She does not follow the tenets of any sect or organized religion. Her craft is her own - usually handed down to her by family and honed by her own experience and research."
**This full moon pendant is from Chilli & Lime and I love it.